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'I tried to kill myself when I was younger, with pills. I wasn't afraid then and I'm not afraid now. It's almost a relief that my job is almost done.' --Betty Breadth 'I've never been treated so well. It's ironic--I had to wait until I was dying to get it.' --Betty Breadth 'I really enjoy taking care of her. I feel like I can't help her enough. There are times when I wish it were all over, but then I realize that when it's over, it's over, and I get really sad.' --LeAna Olson 'I think more about death--there are more questions. I wonder if this is going to be my last step. It's like attempting suicide: You have a plan, but you don't have a plan. I want to be aware to a certain extent, and on the other hand, I don't. I would like to just go to sleep and not wake up.' --Betty Breadth 'She says she doesn't know what to do with herself, that she's bored. She wants to do something so her mind's occupied, so she doesn't feel the pain. Videos and TV aren't enough, so finding a way to occupy her mind isn't easy.' --Aikasha Figliola-Kaderli 'I know that I'll be with Mom again. Sometimes I felt like Dad was more with me after he died.' --Karena Christman 'She said she wanted to go, and we asked her what she's hanging on to. I think she's hanging on to control. She thinks dying is physical, but it's spiritual. She thinks she can just push a button and go, but I believe she has to let go spiritually.' --Aikasha Figliola-Kaderli Continue... [ Santa Cruz | MetroActive Central | Archives ]